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My Breakthrough

Originally Published on Substack on April 18th, 2025

This week has been one of true brilliance, from last Friday to this Friday, I have somehow transformed. I have seen love right before my eyes. I have written in ways that extracted my soul. I have spoken words I never dreamed of sharing. And I have taken actions that are grace-driven, honest, and aligned.

In the past month, I have worked to take up space, practice and acknowledge my resiliency, and to be curious about what could come if I were more honest with myself and those around me. I have had conversations about the depths of my heart. About the hurts and anger I have carried for many, many years. Something that stands out in all of it is the fact that I am brilliant.

Yes, this is the “Humility in Unknown Possibility” blog. Yes, I do attempt with the help of my faith to practice humility. But I need to speak my truth. And the truth is, in taking up space, in practicing honesty, in allowing myself to feel deeply, I have discovered my brilliance.

I am writing something that feels like my big break. It feels like my stroke of genius. Writing it has felt hard, painful, like the time I had to have hundreds of cactus spines removed from my legs after a game of tag in Colorado went astray. It feels like the soaking of a wound in vodka. It feels volatile, and yet I am writing. Returning to it daily, adding this note or that note. And for the first time ever I want everyone to read it. I’ve been purposefully holding back, intentionally slowing down before talking about it. Which has never been a problem for me in the past with my writing. This blog for the longest time was something that I’d want to hide from. Someone would say, “I read your blog,” and I would want to hide, crawl into myself. Because I know my blog is an intentional place of honesty.

But now that I have lived the past week differently. Intentionally calling people whom I need to call, showing up in my truth, entering spaces knowing I am qualified, and have the tools to be successful. Now, my writing feels like something I want everyone to read. I can’t wait till the time feels right to unveil what I have been working on.

While writing this big thing, I have often felt as though this is my stroke of genius and that it will leave me. But as I have continued to write, and pray, and be, I have realized that I am brilliant. Truly. I am deserving of the love I receive. I am deserving of the mentorship, the flowers, the moments of joy, and the moments of accolade. Not because I am being used as “inspiration” or because I am “black”. Not because I have to earn it. No, I am genuinely full of brilliance when working in my alignment. When I focus on my purpose in the present and not where I should be this time next year I realize I am full of potential. I am worthy of taking up space. I am grace embodied. I am brilliant. And guess the fuck what?! Saying that out loud does not make me less humble or prideful. It makes me a human who knows she is beloved, and meant to be, and who is currently in alignment.

I will come back and read this post often, because this is a breakthrough for me. For my own journey to self-acceptance, for my own creativity, and growth. Because imagine my dear reader, how amazing we would all be if we recognized our brilliance? If we let go of shame and guilt? If we accepted ourselves as the authors of our journey. If we all woke up and said, “Actually no, I’m going to make different choices because I deserve to feel unconditional love, and release anger”. What would happen? Who would we all be? I challenge you to think of the life you are writing, and think about how you would want to write it differently in the present, so your future may look a bit brighter. And more aligned with your divine purpose.